To be perfectly honest, I’m not feeling very thankful today. Ava has been sick for the last few days with an ear infection, and horrible, ridiculously high temperatures. She is on antibiotics, but getting them into her is really hard. I’ve had to resort to panadol suppositories for the temp, but even then it seems to either control the pain, or the fever, not both at the same time. It’s her birthday tomorrow, and at this rate, I’m kind of ready to postpone it.
I’m exhausted. She hasn’t slept well the last few nights, so of course neither have I. My house looks like a bomb has hit it, cause I haven’t been able to do any housework. Dinner the last two nights has been sausages in bread (cooked by Tim on the BBQ), with no salad, and toasted sandwiches. As a result we are now out of bread. I had to give the kid cold sausage rolls for lunch at school today.
At some point today I need to get to the shops. Obviously for bread, but also, eggs, flour and other necessitates for birthday cake making. And something quick and easy for dinner tonight, cause I don’t think I’ll be cooking a three course meal. Particularly since it is also Taylah’s jazz ballet night.
Bridie had a meltdown over going to school this morning. One of the girls is being a bully, and some are bossy. Which I think is probably quite character building for Bridie, seeing as she is very domineering herself. I almost considered keeping her home, just cause I couldn’t cope with the fight, but then the thought of her and Bailey going silly in the doctors, while Ava is sick and miserable, was too much to bare.
So I yelled at all the kids. Poor Taylah tried three times to tell me a story, and I cut her off three times cause I couldn’t hear her between Ava’s tears, and Bridie’s tantrums. So then she sat next to me and repeatedly pressed the button on a doll so that it sang over and over and over again.
Yes. I was a crabby mummy. A quick walk after dropping the girls off would have lifted my spirits, but of course today Bailey decided he was ‘too little,’ to ride, and kept getting off his bike. We took the shortest way home possible, and even that wasn’t easy.
So being thankful today seems impossible, but I am going to try.
I’m thankful that I can get Ava into the doctor again today, and hopefully get whatever is causing these fevers sorted. I’m grateful that I have my little munchkin at all, and I will celebrate her birthday tomorrow, even if it is on the couch doped up on panadol.
And I am oh so thankful for all the wonderful cuddles I have been getting from her. She is not usually a snuggly person.
I’m thankful that I live in a country, where I am never really out of food. I can always grab bread, milk and other necessities, (like Pauls Lite Iced Coffee.)
I’m also really thankful for Pauls Lite Iced Coffee.
I’m thankful that Bailey can finally ride his bike! I can put Ava in the pram, and the kids ride along and it’s actually a walk that gets my heart pumping, rather than a gentle stroll the burns the calories from one tic tac.
I’m thankful for grace. That my kids extend it to me so very freely, even when I yell and am cranky mum. That God extends it so freely, even when I don’t treat my little ones the way he would have me treat them.
This morning as I dropped the girls off at school, I felt a little guilty I wasn’t walking them in. But I knew if I did there was a fair chance that Bridie would refuse to let me go, and also Bailey wasn’t dressed cause I just didn’t have time this morning. As I drove off, I looked in the rearview mirror, and saw Taylah waiting for Bridie. Every time I drop them off I look back at this scene. Whilst so many siblings just walk off to class on their own, my girls always wait and walk with each other. It makes me think that even on my crabby days, I must be doing something right, because our family is so full of love, that my girls really are each others best friends.
And I am so thankful for that.
Thanks Kate, for hosting thankful Thursday. Otherwise this post may have been titled ‘It’s my blog, and I’ll cry if I want to.’ Its good to force thankfulness sometimes 🙂