Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
Every now and then, you come across a blog post, or a deep discussion, where someone wants to talk about their ‘theme song.’ And it invariably ends with the question, “what’s your theme song?’ which of course you can’t answer straight away because, lets face it, no one is instantly that retrospective about their own lives.
Sometimes, however, you have a moment.
A minute of pure, clear clarity, that allows you to see the truth so beautifully and obviously, you wonder how you don’t live in it.
Followers of my facebook and instagram pages, will know that on Saturday night I willingly afflicted myself with the burden of watching A Walk to Remember.
If you haven’t seen this movie, do yourself a favour: kick the kids out of the house, read about ten IBOT posts (share the love) and then watch it beginning to end with some kind of chocolate treat. Make sure you have the tissues on hand, because you are going to need them. Trust me.
This movie, has to be one of my most favourite movies ever. Sure the story is a little basic, and it has more than it’s fair share of corny lines, but the message behind it is nothing short of beautiful. The journey from disbelief to faith; finding love and having it change every single part of who you are.
It also has an awesome sound track, with the majority of songs courtesy of Switchfoot, one of my most favouritist bands ever.
everything differentlyIt was them, that inspired me on Saturday evening, and made me realise exactly what my theme song is, and always has been. From the moments where I wish I had done everything differently, to the others when I know without a shadow of a doubt, that I am exactly where I am meant to be, on the right path.
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
I don’t know how it is for you, but I always know when change is on the horizon; I can just feel it. And I have had this inkling like crazy the last few months. The pressure has increased, but so has the opportunity. I’ve been tested and troubled, and I haven’t given up. I’m both terrified and excited; I know the good is coming. And not just the good, but the great. I can’t say how, or why, just that it is.
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I’m…..
And yet, as always, I know it’s not to do with me. My life is but a moment. A fleeting number of days on this earth. A speck in the grand scheme of eternity. What I am given, is not for me, but for others. Life is not meant to be lived in a way that is just pleasing to our own sense of self-satisfaction; it’s meant to be given so that those around us can live free. It’s about liberating and being liberated.
It’s about others.
I used to think that would bother me. That I would resent not being able to have anything to myself ever, and to constantly feel the need to make sure that I was always giving back.
And yet I don’t.
There is a living in a giving; a beautiful freedom in knowing that all you are is not just for you, but for those around you, and that the more you give, the more you become. It’s conflicting and completing all at once.
My life, so far, in it’s almost 30 years, has been about setting the stage. I feel like all the moments up until this one, have been the dress rehearsal. The key characters are in place, the stage has been set and opening night has been scheduled.
The only think missing is the script at the story line; who knows how it’s all going to end?
And yet, here I am. On the brink, or the cusp or whatever you want to call it. Exactly where I’ve always been, and yet so different.
Ready, waiting, and open.
Learning to breathe.
Do you have theme song?
Are you capable of being instantly retrospective enough to answer that question? 🙂