This is a product review.
Fear is a funny thing. You never really understand it until you have it. Which, I suppose is true for a great many things. Having the fear does make you so much more compassionate for others, but it also really sucks.
The first time I tore the ligaments in my ankle, I was being just a little bit silly. Running backwards up and down a step in your living room, whilst attempting to have a conversation with someone, is asking for trouble. I kind of deserved it.
The second time however, I never saw it coming. Apparently sitting down for four days in a car, meant I forgot how to walk, because at a random roadhouse in the middle of nowhere, I stepped off a verandah and ended up on the ground, ankle ligaments once again torn. (Although funny, cause BJ was sure I was screaming because I had been bitten by an ant, and declared war on all the ants he could see.)
The verdict this time was that the ligament was probably not just torn, but ruptured. Now I’m not sure exactly what that means, and there’s no definitive way to prove it, but basically my netball career is over. Not that I ever had a netball career, but anyway…..
After the injury I saw the physio, and he gave me a whole bunch of exercises to basically get me running again. If I can hop I can run, and hopping was a huge improvement on what I was capable of; basically walking with a limp.
Fast forward a few months and I can hop, I can run, and I’m also supposed to propel myself of small ledges and land correctly in order to train my brain to make my feet land properly. It’s all well and good in principle, and honestly I was all gung ho and on board, but….
I’m scared. Like actually scared.
I can walk in my kitchen, and my ankle rolls over nothing. It’s not bad, but it twinges. I stand funny, and I feel the bite of that injury. I have a whole bunch of movement in my foot that I shouldn’t have, and if I roll my ankle badly again, I risk damaging ligaments and tendons on the other side of my foot. Not fun.
Plus it hurts. Worse than a break they say.
And so mostly my fitness routine consists of tearing it up on my exercise, in front of the TV, and Grey’s Anatomy. Heart rate monitor attached, and informing just how hard I’m working. It’s been good. It’s exercise, and it’s moving.
But it’s not running.
But I’m determined to fight the fear. I have a gorgeous tangerine Magellan Echo, and I’m determined to use it to run again. I like the watch. It’s syncs to apps on my iPhone, ( I use Wahoo Fitness, but it’s also currently compatible with Strava, MapMyRun and iSmoothRun plus others), which is always with me when I leave the house anyway (in case of injury) Everything is accessible on the watch itself. Pause, lap feature, even changing of music is just a click on my wrist. And I like that. I don’t need the extra coordination of trying to navigate my phone whilst exercising; moving without injury is enough of a challenge. It’s the perfect running watch, and I will run with it.
It’s just taking me time…
I’ve hit the pavement a few times, best of intentions in mind. Echo on, funky heart monitor strapped in place, phone app all connected via blue tooth. I start by walking swiftly, taking in the view, and feeling appreciative of the helpful signs along the way…
But then, something happens.
Fear kicks in, and I can’t do it.
The ground feels loose beneath my feet, and I suddenly fear that at any moment, I may slip and end up down a cliff.
And let’s face it, it’s not too much of a stretch of the imagination to see that happen.
And so I keep walking. Fast paced walking up and down the hills, enjoying the peace, and my tunes and the view, and hoping that the ground will stay still, and not rise up to meet me. Hoping that one day, I’ll be able to face the fear and run again.
Thanks to Magellan, I have one Echo, valued at $149 to give way.
All you need to do is answer this question:
What would you do, if you weren’t afraid?
Disclosure: I was given a Magellan Echo and heart rate monitor for the purpose of review. All opinions are my own. Giveaway is open to Australian residents only, and is open till Sunday June 22nd. This is a game of skill, and the winner will be chosen based on their answer. Judges decision is final and will not be entered into. Please make sure you are easily contactable via Facebook or email. Winner will have 48 hours to respond to their notification, or the prize will be redrawn.